Becki Thomas

• Apparitions
• Becki's Agony
• Dangerous Pleasure
• Don't touch me
• I'm back
• Numb
• Return to Despondency
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Apparitions

By the light of the moon in the mist..
transient impressions and sculptures exist
Visions of fleeting shadows at dusk
Illusions enhanced by the scent of musk
Spectres wandering aimlessly through the haze
phantoms frolicking amidst the moon's rays...
Abysmal images and silhouettes
Cavorting and performing pirouettes...
Flights of hallucination enrich reality
Abstractions of spirits defy practicality
The splendor of figures suspended in air
Disappear and vanish in the morning glare

Becki's Agony

Sadness dances in her troubled eyes
Her spirit yearns to escape flesh
Contorted nerve endings are tender
Reaking of wounds,bloody and fresh

Pain like cancer, corrodes
Treatment cannot be found
Dark shadow embraces her
As she cowers upon the ground

She cannot stand, her legs too weak
To bear the weight of her tired frame
Her soul bleeds as she collapses
The Angels call out her name

She extends her arms to divinity
Wings and halos- merely teasing
They fly away and abandon her
On the tarmac- cold and freezing

All is dark and undetectable
But somewhere in teh night
A cry penetrates the silence
A figure attempts to catch the light

Daybreak dawns, shadows vanish
But one shadow still remains
It follows her and taunts her
And teases with its games

Dangerous Pleasure

Tranquilise my anxiety
And enhance the longevity of bliss
Anesthesise my pain and heartache
As I plunge into the abyss

Numb the grief and bereavement
Which exist in such high number
Obliterate my afflictions
And propel me into slumber

Paralyse my trepidation
Desensitise my brain
Deaden my emotions
To alleviate the pain

Segregate my mind from body
Meteroic exuberence will prevail
Send me to the fourth dimension
Where harmony's of avail

Ostracize my torment and misery
Eliminate my mourning and sorrow
Mitigate my insecurities
So that I can face tomorrow

Don't touch me

Don't touch me, don;t talk to me
Please don't shed a tear
Just leave me alone tpo crumble
When the end is near

Loaded handgun with no safety catch
The pills that invalidate feelling
Razor blades in my clutches
Rope dangling from the ceiling

We all have our crosses to bear
Mine's just larger than others
Condemn me not, just leave me be
To cry beneath the covers

I'm back

Wind, fire and storm clouds
Could cause me no affliction
My blood is pulsating with strength
I'm ready for any affliction.

Deceitful charms cannot beguile me
My naivety has been banished
I repel all anxieties, as
My insecurities have all vanished

Pleasant recollections
Plaque the odious kind
Enchantig melodies of energy
Rapidly fill my mind

Numb

I can't feel pleaseure, I can't feel pain
I wish I could feel something
I don't feel crazy, I don't feel sane
I wish I could feel something

I can't feellove, I can't feel hate
Rescue me before its too late
I don't feel lost, I don't feel found
I can't feel my feet upon the ground

At least with pain, you know you're alive
Even when you wish you were dead
Oh God, please don't let me dwell
In an eternal concrete bed

Return to Despondency

I am my own enemy
I hate my feelings and my memory
I feel myself slipping
Whilst tenaciously still gripping
Open the door:
I'll fall to the floor
Once more, I can't handle
Blow out my candle
So I'll burn myself no more
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